This is my diary...but it is not just a diary.
I never write diaries. But today I feel compelled by the overwhelming sadness my family and I feel at the loss of our beloved Ben. It is so strong I can't sleep or eat right now. Watching him detriorate so suddenly and fall so poorly and just want to go has left me with an overhwhelming need to share the emotions and difficulty in coming to terms with his loss. He was 17 and an old boy but he had been healthy until his final week just like our beloved Holly whom we lost just 4 months before. They both suffered Chronic Renal Failure due to their old age. Veterinary help, unfortunately, was in vain at that point. Typically by the time they displayed symptoms it was too far gone. Sooo frustrating and traumatic to watch!

 They were pretty much inseparable but Ben did not seem to realise initially that she had gone. He was as I said an old boy but the most adorable, gentle, affectionate soul you could ever meet. Everyone was his friend and he loved everyone and everything.

I think, what I would like to do with this blog is, hopefully, let anyone of you out there who is experiencing the loss of a pet and needs to express those feelings and share those special memories of your special friend, know that you can express your loss here and find confort in that. It is so important to be able to mourn your pet and go through the natural grieving process.

We all experience a spectrum of feelings throughout this process, in varying degrees and different times but the one thing  I know, having been through this with losing Holly, is we should let it happen and understand that it is a healthy part of life and noone should undermine your feelings for your pet.
Our pets are our friends and give us unconditional love and affection which is rare in the world today and so this special bond we experience and develop over the years is precious.

I found that there are some ways which can help us to mourn and celebrate their lives remembering the good times. 

One thing I know is this whole emptiness and loss I feel has drained my energy, but I will be back because I want to share some special and really helpful ways to get through this difficult time,
More to come...Special things we can do.

Please contact me if you too are going through this and need to share your grief and sadness at your loss. I want to find a way in which all of us can get through these difficult times and share the happy memories.